On the Verge of Something Big

Do you remember when you were so close to achieving a dream you'd had for a long time?  Maybe it was your wedding day or the day you became a mother.  Maybe it was when you landed the perfect job or graduated.

I've been having that feeling a lot lately.  Like I'm on the verge of something big.  I'm not fully sure why this is.  To be sure, I have a few irons in the fire that I am waiting to draw out:  I am working toward my foster care license and adopting internationally.  And I am now halfway through my seminary education.  Yet, all of these events are months and years in the future; they will not happen tomorrow.

But for some reason, I am expecting big things.  In the near future.

Over the past six months, I have been participating in a prayer retreat.  I have been intentionally spending more time in prayer.  As I looked over my journal for the retreat, I remembered that God had blessed me during this time - with specific events, people and ideas.  Blessings were not all that I got out of this prayer challenge:  I dealt with struggles and at times felt like God had abandoned me in the desert!

Once I adjusted my focus from me to Him, God himself started showing up.  Well, actually, I started seeing Him, right where He was the whole time.

Perhaps my anticipation is that God is here!  He has a plan for me!

And I can't wait to see what happens.